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I got a real bad headache early today. Guess I just need more sleep?
Or less radiation exposure from watching too many screens.
 
Pre-service. Always been a morning person.



Still active duty... so I'm not ex anything.

And I'm one of those really strange guys that just don't lie on the internet or create personas. Dunno why.
Eh, I have no particular desire to give certain people from my past and present the ability to keep track of my thoughts on various subjects via a cursory Bing but you do you man.
 
I went to Kohls to spend a $15 Kohls Cash that was about to expire yesterday. I was intending to either replace my running pants (the current pair having rather more crotch ventilation than is factory standard) or maybe get a new heavy-but-decent-looking shirt.

There was a bunch of stuff on sale. The pertinent item here is a pair of jeans. I liked the color, I liked the fabric. A pair of Levi 511's, for over half off. Nice. Grabbed 'em up without trying them on.

I didn't really register what 'Skinny' meant. I was thinking that they were going to be slim fitting - like, a little slimmer than the 'Regular Fit' I liked.

No. Skinny means that I need to lose about 20 lbs if I don't want them to restrict my movement. They're almost painted on, and my, uh, parts are going in different directions because there's no room in the front. When I was working out, I wouldn't have even been able to pull them all the way up.

The worst part? I TORE OFF THE TAGS BEFORE PUTTING THEM ON. At least I'm only out twenty bucks, and that's if I can't rig up some reattachment of the tags I dug out of the trash to return them.



Glad you're still walkin' and talkin', Sneak.
Oof. Skinny sizes. She can wear some smaller clothes relative to her abnormal shape.

Not sure who you are, tho you're a good writer. ^_^
 
Personally, I always buy my denims a couple inches larger than my waist size, and I always look for straight cuts, semi-carrot or relaxed fit.
 
Stressing over the holidays... yet again. Getting gifts for people I dislike out of obligation (and it's not like I have a lot of money to spare on gifts), not knowing what to get unless explicitly told in most cases, and receiving at least a few things I am likely going to want to return ( just an educated guess, I know at least a few things I'm probably going to be gifted which will not be something I wanted or needed and will either be returned or end up in storage and never used). There's also the issue that I feel like an ass if I don't reciprocate in some way when people get me gifts... and the issue that, as stated previously, I'm poor. I admit that. I don't have a lot of money to spend on gifts for more than a few people.

There's the forced cheeriness and forced social gatherings with people thinking there's something wrong with me or getting mad if I'm not in the "holiday spirit". I've had people repeatedly get mad at me or mock me for hating the holiday season. I hate incessant Christmas songs and tacky Christmas decorations that sometimes start before Halloween. My birthday is on the 17th and I hate that I can't enjoy that with out Christmas infecting it, though I dislike my birthday for other reasons as well.

I have people getting annoyed with me because I refused to participate in any sort of Christmas celebration on the Winter Solstice (my father's side of the family's Christmas) when they wanted to schedule it on the same day. You know what... I don't care that they had to reschedule around me because of that even though a Friday would have been more convenient for them, but if they have such a hard on for me being there and I'm willing go to their events out of courtesy than they can fucking respect that the Solstices and Equinoxes are days I plan for myself and I don't care what holidays they fall near, I have mentioned this repeatedly over the past several years and they always seem to forget this point.

I hate having to go several different gatherings for different family members (or just having to go to any major social gathering to begin with) and that Thanksgiving is basically just "Christmas: Part 1" and New Year's is "Christmas: The Finale". I hate the commercialism and that people seem to lose their minds in the worship of capitalism and spending money they're better off not spending. Just as an example, I'm sure we all know the repeated incidents of people being crushed or trampled to the point of serious injury or death due to crowds rushing to shop for this holiday or getting into debt just from the holidays. I hate how much electricity gets wasted on Christmas lights. I hate being forced to participate in putting up Christmas decorations with the person I live with. I hate all the gift wrapping that goes in the garbage due to this holiday.

I basically end putting up an act to satisfy others at best when it comes to this holiday. "Grin and bear it" as it were.

There's a reason I spend the actual holiday gatherings either drunk or doped up on antianxiety medication. I actually got insulted for that when my mother told me this year at one point, "You're not going to remember Christmas anyway."

I wanted to say, "Fuck you, there's reason I drink during this dumb ass, insane holiday you people force me to participate in and I hate.", but instead remained silent to not escalate into yet another argument over Christmas.

EDIT: And sorry about the rant, I just needed to vent. I can't talk with anyone I actually know personally how much I loathe the holidays. It just tends to make me angry/annoyed, stressed, anxious, and depressed.
 
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I find myself hankering for a good roti canai. One day soon I'm going to take the time to properly satiate this craving.
 
Stressing over the holidays... yet again. Getting gifts for people I dislike out of obligation (and it's not like I have a lot of money to spare on gifts), not knowing what to get unless explicitly told in most cases, and receiving at least a few things I am likely going to want to return ( just an educated guess, I know at least a few things I'm probably going to be gifted which will not be something I wanted or needed and will either be returned or end up in storage and never used). There's also the issue that I feel like an ass if I don't reciprocate in some way when people get me gifts... and the issue that, as stated previously, I'm poor. I admit that. I don't have a lot of money to spend on gifts for more than a few people.

There's the forced cheeriness and forced social gatherings with people thinking there's something wrong with me or getting mad if I'm not in the "holiday spirit". I've had people repeatedly get mad at me or mock me for hating the holiday season. I hate incessant Christmas songs and tacky Christmas decorations that sometimes start before Halloween. My birthday is on the 17th and I hate that I can't enjoy that with out Christmas infecting it, though I dislike my birthday for other reasons as well.

I have people getting annoyed with me because I refused to participate in any sort of Christmas celebration on the Winter Solstice (my father's side of the family's Christmas) when they wanted to schedule it on the same day. You know what... I don't care that they had to reschedule around me because of that even though a Friday would have been more convenient for them, but if they have such a hard on for me being there and I'm willing go to their events out of courtesy than they can fucking respect that the Solstices and Equinoxes are days I plan for myself and I don't care what holidays they fall near, I have mentioned this repeatedly over the past several years and they always seem to forget this point.

I hate having to go several different gatherings for different family members (or just having to go to any major social gathering to begin with) and that Thanksgiving is basically just "Christmas: Part 1" and New Year's is "Christmas: The Finale". I hate the commercialism and that people seem to lose their minds in the worship of capitalism and spending money they're better off not spending. Just as an example, I'm sure we all know the repeated incidents of people being crushed or trampled to the point of serious injury or death due to crowds rushing to shop for this holiday or getting into debt just from the holidays. I hate how much electricity gets wasted on Christmas lights. I hate being forced to participate in putting up Christmas decorations with the person I live with. I hate all the gift wrapping that goes in the garbage due to this holiday.

I basically end putting up an act to satisfy others at best when it comes to this holiday. "Grin and bear it" as it were.

There's a reason I spend the actual holiday gatherings either drunk or doped up on antianxiety medication. I actually got insulted for that when my mother told me this year at one point, "You're not going to remember Christmas anyway."

I wanted to say, "Fuck you, there's reason I drink during this dumb ass, insane holiday you people force me to participate in and I hate.", but instead remained silent to not escalate into yet another argument over Christmas.

EDIT: And sorry about the rant, I just needed to vent. I can't talk with anyone I actually know personally how much I loathe the holidays. It just tends to make me angry/annoyed, stressed, anxious, and depressed.
Hey here's what may be a revolutionary thought: you can absolutely give yourself a year off.

This year is the first year in the last three that I'm going to go to family Christmas, and it's with my partner's family. Last two years we ran off to a music festival that happens to be held around boxing day. I saw my family at other times of the year when the togetherness was less culturally loaded. Because I find it less stressful that way. For a huge host of reasons.

You don't have to do that exactly, but just because the big family event is happening doesn't mean you have to go every year if it's a straight up ordeal. You're an adult, you absolutely have the power to make that sort of choice for yourself.

If skipping town doesn't appeal, just set yourself an exposure limit and duck out when you run out of patience/spoons/energy.

Like, I love my family but they're fucking exhausting. More than three continuous hours in their presence is my hard limit usually and I make escape plans to make sure I can get out if I need to. If it's all going well I just don't use the plan. If it's making me feel awful I just leave after I've hit my planned limit.
 
Stressing over the holidays... yet again. Getting gifts for people I dislike out of obligation (and it's not like I have a lot of money to spare on gifts), not knowing what to get unless explicitly told in most cases, and receiving at least a few things I am likely going to want to return ( just an educated guess, I know at least a few things I'm probably going to be gifted which will not be something I wanted or needed and will either be returned or end up in storage and never used). There's also the issue that I feel like an ass if I don't reciprocate in some way when people get me gifts... and the issue that, as stated previously, I'm poor. I admit that. I don't have a lot of money to spend on gifts for more than a few people.

There's the forced cheeriness and forced social gatherings with people thinking there's something wrong with me or getting mad if I'm not in the "holiday spirit". I've had people repeatedly get mad at me or mock me for hating the holiday season. I hate incessant Christmas songs and tacky Christmas decorations that sometimes start before Halloween. My birthday is on the 17th and I hate that I can't enjoy that with out Christmas infecting it, though I dislike my birthday for other reasons as well.

I have people getting annoyed with me because I refused to participate in any sort of Christmas celebration on the Winter Solstice (my father's side of the family's Christmas) when they wanted to schedule it on the same day. You know what... I don't care that they had to reschedule around me because of that even though a Friday would have been more convenient for them, but if they have such a hard on for me being there and I'm willing go to their events out of courtesy than they can fucking respect that the Solstices and Equinoxes are days I plan for myself and I don't care what holidays they fall near, I have mentioned this repeatedly over the past several years and they always seem to forget this point.

I hate having to go several different gatherings for different family members (or just having to go to any major social gathering to begin with) and that Thanksgiving is basically just "Christmas: Part 1" and New Year's is "Christmas: The Finale". I hate the commercialism and that people seem to lose their minds in the worship of capitalism and spending money they're better off not spending. Just as an example, I'm sure we all know the repeated incidents of people being crushed or trampled to the point of serious injury or death due to crowds rushing to shop for this holiday or getting into debt just from the holidays. I hate how much electricity gets wasted on Christmas lights. I hate being forced to participate in putting up Christmas decorations with the person I live with. I hate all the gift wrapping that goes in the garbage due to this holiday.

I basically end putting up an act to satisfy others at best when it comes to this holiday. "Grin and bear it" as it were.

There's a reason I spend the actual holiday gatherings either drunk or doped up on antianxiety medication. I actually got insulted for that when my mother told me this year at one point, "You're not going to remember Christmas anyway."

I wanted to say, "Fuck you, there's reason I drink during this dumb ass, insane holiday you people force me to participate in and I hate.", but instead remained silent to not escalate into yet another argument over Christmas.

EDIT: And sorry about the rant, I just needed to vent. I can't talk with anyone I actually know personally how much I loathe the holidays. It just tends to make me angry/annoyed, stressed, anxious, and depressed.

 
So I just finished my interview for the internship application for a congressman's office. It's surprisingly more relaxed than I thought.

I hope I get the job personally. I mostly agree with him on most of the issues and genuinely interested to learn how the US government works from an insider's perspective.
 
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Hey @Jakarta I'm happy for you and I hope you get the job, but I recommend not naming names unless you don't mind that office potentially finding everything you've ever said in this forum. I guarantee that they Google themselves and you just made the probability of them finding your account above zero. Benderbat Cumberscone that shit.

It's not paranoia if I know public servants who lost their jobs over political things they said under "anonymous" usernames.
 
Hey @Jakarta I'm happy for you and I hope you get the job, but I recommend not naming names unless you don't mind that office potentially finding everything you've ever said in this forum. I guarantee that they Google themselves and you just made the probability of them finding your account above zero. Benderbat Cumberscone that shit.

naming names? uhh, I don't think I've ever said any public names in any forum ever, in SB or here.
 
naming names? uhh, I don't think I've ever said any public names in any forum ever, in SB or here.
Defizzle isn't a public name? Just be careful is all I'm saying.

Edit: Because I bet there was only a limited number of people who got interviewed by them so... unlikely but not impossible for the post to be found.
 
Hey here's what may be a revolutionary thought: you can absolutely give yourself a year off.

This year is the first year in the last three that I'm going to go to family Christmas, and it's with my partner's family. Last two years we ran off to a music festival that happens to be held around boxing day. I saw my family at other times of the year when the togetherness was less culturally loaded. Because I find it less stressful that way. For a huge host of reasons.

You don't have to do that exactly, but just because the big family event is happening doesn't mean you have to go every year if it's a straight up ordeal. You're an adult, you absolutely have the power to make that sort of choice for yourself.

If skipping town doesn't appeal, just set yourself an exposure limit and duck out when you run out of patience/spoons/energy.

Like, I love my family but they're fucking exhausting. More than three continuous hours in their presence is my hard limit usually and I make escape plans to make sure I can get out if I need to. If it's all going well I just don't use the plan. If it's making me feel awful I just leave after I've hit my planned limit.
The major issue with refusing to participate for me... I live with one of my parents and don't really have the means or resources to move out any time soon. They love Christmas and the arguments between my father and mother on the subject when I was growing up is part of the reason I've come to hate Christmas. One loved to put up Christmas decorations while the other didn't and this always led to an argument for example. I've come to dislike putting up Christmas decorations as well.

I could refuse to celebrate Christmas and come to any gatherings involving it, but this would piss off a family member I live with and have to deal with on a regular basis when I don't see that as a good idea (not to mention various other family members who live in the same town as I do), though we do tend to get into arguments on the subject if I say the wrong thing so I've just learned to not say anything bad about the holidays to avoid pissing people off.

It causes me stress, but it's better just to go along with it and not alienate my family too much over this kind of thing.
 
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