I should kill myself I'm a horrible person the world will be better without me. Bye. Go ahead and get it out of your system @Rufus Shinra about how much better you are than me and everyone here and use me as an example.
Maybe I should stop using my mental illness and these meds as a crutch and stop taking them since they are obviously not working. I was thinking about quitting drinking too but I think that was a bad idea.
Don't have the patience to deal with recalcitrant jackasses today, ESPECIALLY fucking today of all fucking days. I am so fucking sick of being soooo considerate to people IRL, being soooo reserved, sooo polite, soooo careful and aware and having the complete and utter socioeconomic shitfuckkicked out of me with reckless and ruthless fucking abandon the moment I decide to indulge myself, or relax, or let myself go even an INCH. Fucking DOOOOOOOONE.
You don’t wanna know Tang Soo Do if you’ve got assassins on your ass. You want to have good cardio, and you want to know parkour and Krav Maga disarms. The best thing to do if caught unarmed against a handgun-wielding attacker is to run. If you’re ambushed at very close range, and they’re not trying to mug you but attempting to kill you straight away, you have a tiny window of time to react and attempt a disarm. If you fail, you’re going to be bleeding to death out of a hole in your neck in a second or two. If they reveal themselves from a good fifteen yards away, turn and sprint in the other direction, occasionally darting and changing course to make your movements harder to predict so they can’t get a good bead on you. Most handguns aren’t super-accurate beyond 25 yards. The faster you can increase the distance, the better. Try and put an obstacle between you and them as quickly as possible. If there is a corner, turn it. The ability to quickly vault over low walls is also useful. At the very first opportunity, you want to whip out your phone and call 911. The more shit you can put between yourself and your attackers, including cops, the better.
Oh yes, the Earth is a cosmic speck, I agree. Sapient minds, humans, are never deserving of Hell though. Consciousness matters in this universe. Another quote: “The full cosmos consists of the physical stuff and consciousness. Take away consciousness and it's only dust; add consciousness and you get things, ideas, and time.”
Do you not see the problem with the idea of: "I'd feel better if my enemies were tortured forever."?
This is what religious fundies and extremists like to think. If you helps you sleep at night to imagine people suffering in Hell for eternity or that if you had the chance you'd torture your enemies forever then you have something wrong with you.
You seem like you have a massive chip on your shoulder or something and this is worrisome.